to neverland and back

Y’all, it seems like it has been forever since I last posted. Let me tell you, it sure has been a whirlwind these past few months! As you know, we found a condo in Ohio and moved the majority of our stuff over back in July. But, Josh and I didn’t actually move over because we were both still working at our previous jobs. Let me tell you, it’s loads of fun moving back in with your parents after being independent for so many years! Real talk- it was stressful at times because everyone has their own quirks and routines and ways of living, but we both felt really thankful that we had a stable, safe, and rent-free place to stay while transitioning through everything. I started applying for jobs as soon as we had our condo in hopes of getting hired somewhere in Ohio before Josh started school. Weeelllll, fast forward to the middle of August, to having applied for at least 50+ jobs at as many places as I could think of and I still don’t have a job and Josh is moving away so he can start classes. You guys, that was SO hard for me. Josh and I have done everything together since we started dating- working together, working out together, eating all our meals together, you name it, we were together. It had already been a huge transition for me commuting to my job in Louisville, but at least we spent our mornings and evenings together. I cried. A lot. Even when I would come stay with him at our condo every weekend, I cried when I had to leave to go back to my parents. I thought it would get easier, but it really didn’t. I know some couples have it way harder and have to live apart for way longer. My heart goes out to them, now I understand how difficult it is! Thank God, we only had to live apart for a month before I finally received a job offer at another pharmaceutical company! I’ve been working there for almost two weeks now and I really like it! The people are all amazing and I’m slowly but surely learning my way around and working through my training. Mostly, I’m just really happy that Josh and I are living together again!!!

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Through all this new and unknown, I was super excited to be a part of throwing a baby shower for my sister-in-law this past weekend! My sister worked so hard on coming up with a theme and making all the decorations, while my mom and I bring her vision to life. The baby shower turned out so cute and makes me even more excited to be a boy auntie again soon!

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Tell me that isn’t one of the most adorable Peter Pan themed baby showers you’ve ever seen!!! Hurry up and get here, baby boy! 

ch-ch-ch-changes

I know it’s been awhile since I last posted and I have a very good reason for that! For nearly five years, Josh and I had been working together and had a great daily routine set up. We worked about ten minutes from where we live (so convenient), but I was slowly becoming more and more unhappy there and decided a change was necessary. So, I took a new job! I now travel a little over an hour to work and have later work hours which has been quite an adjustment to my routine. Change is so freaking scary (even when it’s by choice)! But, I’m slowly getting into a rhythm and I’m really loving my new job! In the last month, I’ve already learned several new things and I’m doing things I didn’t think I would ever be doing. It also helps a lot that I have friends that were former co-workers already working there.   

I think the hardest part about switching jobs is not being able to see Josh throughout the day. We didn’t work on the same team, but we both worked on the same floor, so it wasn’t unusual for our paths to cross. We still eat breakfast together every morning before heading our separate ways. And of course, we still text each other throughout the day. But, it’s just not the same. I have really come to cherish our time together after work a whole lot more since making this change. If I have extra time in the morning before I leave for work, I’ll do the laundry or clean up around the house so it doesn’t cut into our time together after work. I try not to be on my phone as much when I get home now and just connect more. It’s a work in progress, but every little minute we get together is becoming more special.

With the job change, my workout routine has also changed. I used to go to a CrossFit gym after work about 25 minutes from our house. This past week, I started going to a new CF gym (about 2 minutes from my new job) in the morning before work. I was pretty nervous about starting somewhere new and meeting a whole new group of people. But, I’ve been trying hard to be open to change and going to the new gym in the morning has actually been really great. The coaches have all been very welcoming, the classes have been much smaller so we get a little more individualized coaching, and I start my day being active and feeling refreshed/ready for the day. I still miss my other gym all the time, but I’m very happy to be getting back to the community aspect of CF instead of working out alone in our garage or the basement at work.

Not only did I join a new gym this week, but the CF Open also started! For those of you who don’t know what the Open is, it is a chance for you to compete against hundreds of thousands of people across the world in five different workouts over five weeks. You sign up online to participate. Every Thursday night for five weeks, a new workout is announced. You then have until Monday evening to complete the workout (with someone “judging” you and keeping track of your workout on an official scorecard) and submit your score online. After each workout has been verified, you get ranked according to your score against everyone else participating. For the majority of people like me, this is just a really fun time to get together with your gym and get a really hard workout in. And it’s really cool to see how you compare to everyone else. This is my fourth year competing in the CF Open and I still get soooo nervous before every workout even though it does not affect my job, my relationships, or anything else at all! I don’t know what it is about the Open, maybe that I know the workout is going to really hurt or that someone is judging me, but it gets me every time. My new gym is holding “Friday Night Lights” where we do the Open workout for that week all together on Friday night. Throughout the day on Friday, I was slightly nervous about doing 18.1, but I was more nervous about going to the gym for the first time in the evening and not knowing anyone but the coaches. I was so surprised that this was the very first Open workout I’ve done where it was just fun. I didn’t know anyone else working out, so while I did work hard and do my best, I didn’t feel any pressure to kill myself during the workout. And the guy who was my judge was so great- he helped me pace during the workout and cheered me on the whole time. Don’t get me wrong, the workout hurt and I was really happy when it was over, but it was so much fun! I can’t wait to see what the next four workouts are!    

I don’t know what the future will hold, but I’m slowly learning that while change can be scary it isn’t always bad and it can bring a lot of wonderful, amazing opportunities! Don’t let fear hold you back!

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